Sometimes i have the sense that a good life is a balancing act on the autism-psychosis spectrum[1], adapting to a fundamentally messy and threatening world and at same time a beautiful world - where imperfection is guaranteed.
note:[1] meant in Andy Clark “surfing uncertainty” cogsci sense, attuning overwhelming “outer sensory”- “inner belief” oriented hierarchical predictive models.eg Wading Through Treacle: "Surfing Uncertainty" on Autism (and Schizophrenia)
When I was a city geek, i led a very narrow left brained neurotic life, overly identified with my core competencies, not going beyond my comfort zone, in fear of the messiness of people and situations, unless intoxicated by flipping across to near psychosis in narcissistic grandious and sentimental false light of non discriminatory, right brained, self-deceptions and delusions. So many of my earliest life projects were like the most ridiculous usaid overseas cover initiatives. Like getting 9 countries to fund 13 companies building more than 30 Agentic AI tools for situation assessment and peace keeping mission planning in mid 90s genocides.
Yet on occasions where i have been more balanced and attuned to reality, I find the most beauty to be found beyond my comfort zone in the bullshitty right brained messiness of life. If only we can keep a balance between left brained responding to messy threats and malevolence practically and pause to afford a self transcending discriminatory perspective beyond in right brain goodness and beauty, plus mix in a bit of operation from love and heart centredness too perhaps. Sort of. Or at least we can continuously return from bullion and economic realities to reflection and stillness to shift perspectives to afford new possibilities.
I think PP is good for my balance and perspective and behaviour shifting, but also to enable dreams beyond. At least you seem to allow for perspective shifting beyond fear response and practicality, even if not dreaming.
I can mix some PP into my dreamy psychosis. So on monday last week i bought 60kg silver and equal value gold before it broke 50/4000 and applied left brained mitigation to very real messiness of vault operations. Is the vault staff capable of exploiting 2 key lock vulnerability such as false positives in key pair test if not reset fully between keys? Can i break simple labelled zip tie tamper detecting seal on inner box? What quality is door and concrete basement etc etc. Can my autonomous diggers get through. Left brained fear projection is certainly appropriate to malevolent world but we should not lock it in to a totality. Enough fear projection affords me to move beyond my comfort zone. So this week i am ready to create a war chest in a vault overseas in opening broader engagement theatre - as safety net for moving out my comfort zone of geeky western city life to beautiful bullshit projects in se asia that actually resonate with heart and life and are not usaid covers.
Dreaming reality can be hard. Not just usaid but a lot of expats are problematic dissident outcasts and alternative scientists. Messy issues everywhere. But I got a lot of gratitude expressed on recent trip that tells me there is hope of balance and real service despite inherent imperfection of life and people. One extended family even presented a touching video they made for help i had forgot about, telling me there can be beauty and goodness too. Plus I recently identified a breakthrough science that has potential to instrumentally improve local economies at same time as substantiating intuitions and insights beyond the normal comfort zone of western science itself - without degrading to alternative science of dissident expats. Still messy and imperfect but hope of discrimination between psychosis and beauty/love.
So I appreciate Gold Core seem to use quality vault operators in Singapore - brinks etc - and PP are helping open some practical possibilities for me. Much appreciated. I have learnt enough left brain practicality this week to plan to shift bullion there to mix enough safety and backup for my se asia engagements that would otherwise be too intimidating a prospect. But does the Gold Core allocated storage in Singapore provide true bailment legal protection to mitigate 3rd party liability risks or just custodianship, if i store certified pert mint bullion with serial numbers? It seems bullion is not at risk to dealer insolvency. Oz vaults are more dubious. PP has helped nudge me into this space toward building a practical left brain war chest as backup for my right brain and heart centred asian projects. Thank you. Not an investor but timing of my biggest silver purchase this week seems in tune - inwardly and outwardly.
